Career aspirations have been on my mind a lot lately. I know as a personal finance blogger I should have major career aspirations that involve making lots of money and gaining lots of power.
But I don’t.
In fact, I hate working in the corporate world. I am blessed to have the job I have, and am very grateful for the paycheck, but I do not feel fulfilled in my job.
Because it is does not fulfill me, I no longer consider my current position my career path. Thinking of doing the same job 20 or 30 years into the future literally makes me want to cry. In fact, doing it for another 2-3 years makes me feel jittery. I just do not enjoy the work, the industry, or the point of the job.
I’ve worked in this position for 2 years now. It’s solid experience and I’ve been lucky to learn a lot and pick up new skills and certification. That’s great, but it’s all in something I don’t enjoy doing. I did not start in my current position but was moved there and trained because I knew some about the work already. At this point in the business they would like me to further specialize in this field.
I don’t want to.
I’m now at a career crossroads. My company is now at a position where it’s growing and stable. I don’t worry about getting paid like I did in the beginning and the stability is nice. However, I’m bored, resentful, and tired of the work I do. This isn’t good for me and my mental state and it’s not good for the company. They should have someone who is passionate or who at least likes the work. I feel guilty for filling the position at the same time that I hate it.
So now I’m at a place where I need to decide what to do. Do I keep working there for a certain amount of time? Do I make a date to leave? Do I look for other work? Do I quit to go back to school? Do I try to ramp up blogging and find a virtual assistant job? Do I find something part time that I enjoy more?
It seems scary to consider any of those when it would involve giving up a full time job with health benefits. I’m torn by fear, hate for my job, and a desire to break free. Hello, quarter-life crisis.